I want to adventure somewhere, and I want shit to resolve itself.  Luckily, I think I've gotten used to my situation (finally), and I'm just chillin'.
I really bothers me that people who wouldn't have otherwise are now all, "Yea, Michael Jackson, so influential, etc."  But a few months ago, they would've accused him of being a child molester.  Whatever, I love him.  It was really weird, cause our friend John died the Monday before MJ and Farrah Fawcett died.  And now Billy Mays is dead.  Three icons of their own fields died, and my dad's best friend.  Bizarre.  I feel sort of numb to lots of stuff again, not in like a depressed way, in a way like I don't really care what happens now, because it's not worth it.  Oh, and this probably sounds fucked up, but I don't care.  It bothers me that Allie isn't gay (or atleast that's what she says), when she only fucks guys when she's to drunk to know what she's doing.  It seems just like she's so insecure about herself and her own sexuality and it comes out when she drinks.  Oh, and that she's just horny.  Not that I should talk about other people's sexuality, cause what do I know, right?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9iPWeu33s34

lol i love these

Rule #1:
If you open this you take it.
Rule #2:
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks.
Rule #3:
Tag 10 people

Answer True or False
Q: Been arrested? false
Q: Do you like someone? true
Q: Held a snake? true
Q: Been suspended from school? false
Q: Sang karaoke? true
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? true
Q: Laughed until you started crying? tgrue
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? true
Q: Kissed in the rain? true, sort of
Q: Sang in the shower? always
Q: Sat on a roof top? true
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? true
Q: Broken a bone? false
Q: Shaved your head? false
Q: Played a prank on someone? true
Q: Shot a gun? false
Q: Donated Blood? false

LAST PERSON.
1. Hung out with? Hannah
3. You were in a car with? Hannah and my mom
4. Went to the movies with? Hannah, Max, Alice, Zach, Navid, Nick,Hanna, Matt, Noah, Sam...
5. Went shopping with? Ugh idek, i dont remember
6. You talked on the phone? mom
7. Made you laugh? hannah, hysterically
8. You hugged? allie, maybe?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
1. Sun or moon? moon
2. Winter or Fall? fall
3. Left or Right? both
4. Sunny or rainy? sunny
5. Where do you live? here
6. Club or pub? depends on mood
7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on? i think?
8. Do you want to get married? idk
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl
10. What time is it? 10:40
11. Are you afraid of commitment? naw
12. What is your greatest hope/wish? i won't say, ty
13. Do you cook? shomtimes
14. Current mood? ehh, doubtful, but really trying to still be hopeful and ok

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU...
1. Kissed someone? yep
2. Sang? of course
3. Listened to music? yes
4. Danced Crazy? i dont think so
5. Cried? i dont think so
6. Liked someone you can't have? ugh

25 FIRSTS .....
1. Who was your first prom date? lol no one
2. Who was your first roommate? dont have one
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? shitty rum
4. What was your first job? dog wallking
5. What was your first car? mah feets
6. When did you go to your 8
8. Who was your first grade teacher? ms. white
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? florida
10. Who was your first best friend? maia
11. Who was your first Best Friend in high school? hmm many people, but who i hadnt been friends with before? Definatly Andrew
12. Where was your first sleepover? maia
15. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? idk
16. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a Bridesmaid or groomsman? never happened
17. What's the first thing you did when you got up this morning? maybe ill see people today WOO
18. What was the first concert you went to? i havent been :<
19. What was the last concert you went to? :'(
20. First tattoo or piercing? helix
21. First celebrity crush? lol idek
22. Current celebrity crush? bah
23. First crush? hmmm
24. First date? HMMMMMMM
25. First time you tied your shoe laces? KG

Five names you go by:
1. Jamie
2. Jame/James
3. Chaims
4. Meems
5. mimii


Three things you are wearing right now:
1. red AA deep v
2. shitty jeans
3. bear feet

Three things you want very badly at the moment:
1.  very specific people
2. sleep
3. homework done

Three people who will probably fill this out:
NO ONE

Two things you did last night:
1. Hung out and went ice skating with Allie, so funsiesl
2. made pokemon mac n cheese at like 12

Two things you ate today:
1. mozzarella/tomato/vinegar sammich yum
2. olive loaf

Two people you last talked to on the phone:
1. mom
2. navid

Three things you are going to do:
1. sleep
2. shower
3. maybe read

Two longest car rides:
1. From Paris to the Dourdonne
2. i dont know, maybe one of the maryland ones

Favorite beverages:
1. apple soda
2. water
3. diet coke





Here's the deal... Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Don't bother typing answers to the question....it makes it more interesting!
Then repost as _% Virgin..and for everyone who's been tagged you must make your own!

1. Smoked?
2. Drank alcohol?
3. Cried when someone died?
4. Been drunk?
5. Had sex?
6. Been to a concert?
7. Unprotected sex?
8. Sex wit the same sex?
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed?
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 94%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up?
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose?
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before?
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend?
15. Been to prom?
16. Cried at school?
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store?
18. Went streaking?
19. Given or received a lap dance?
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 86%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over?
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house?
23. Kissed a stranger?
24. Hugged a stranger?
25. Went scuba diving?
26. Driven a car?
27. Gotten an x-ray?
28. Hit by a car?
29. Had a party?
30. Done serious drugs?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 81%

31. Played strip poker/darts?
32. Got paid to strip for someone?
33. Ran away from home?
34. Broken a bone?
35. Eaten sushi?
36. Bought porn?
37. Watched porn?
38. Made porn?
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
40. Been in love?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 76%

41. French kissed?
42. Laughed so hard you cried?
43. Cried yourself to sleep?
44. Laughed yourself to sleep?
45. Stabbed yourself?
46. Shot a gun?
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day?
48. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours?
49. Been online for 9 consecutive hours?
50. Watched an animal die?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 69%

51. Watched a person die?
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present?
53. Pranked somebody?
54. Put somebody in the hospital?
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out?
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex?
57. Dressed punk?
58. Dressed goth?
59. Dressed preppy?
60. Been to a motocross race?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 62%

61. Avoided somebody?
62. Been stalked?
63. Stalked someone?
64. Met a celebrity?
65. Played an instrument?
66. Ridden a horse?
67. Cut yourself?
68. Bungee jumped?
69. Ding dong ditched somebody?
70. Been to a wild party?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 58%

71. Got caught stealing something?
72. Kicked a guy in the balls?
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend?
74. Went out with your friend's crush?
75. Got arrested?
76. Been pregnant?
77. Babysat?
78. Been to another country?
79. Started your house on fire?
80. Had an encounter with a ghost?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 55%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients?
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by?
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex?
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months?
85. Sat on your butt all day?
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself?
87. Had a job?
88. Gotten cut from a sports team?
89. Been called a whore?
90. Danced like a whore?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 47%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity?
92. Been in a car accident?
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes?
94. Been told you have beautiful hair?
95. Raped somebody?
96. Danced in the rain?
97. Been rejected?
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying?
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face?
100. Been raped?

FINAL PERCENTAGE: 41%

Ugh, I hate this.

It's raining outside, and I can hear it on my sky-light.  It's probably my favorite sound.
I got me computer back FINALLY.  After not having one for a year, it feel nice.
Hmmm...Things are more confusing then ever, but I guess it's starting to look up?
I wanna go do some ahts >:O

P.S. I also took the SATs on Saturday, it was tireing.

hello we will kill you with flu

 I deleted my facebook.  Mostly cause people were giving me shit on it. omg ~internet harassment~
idk how long this will last HA but w/e w/e.
God, I really hate people sometimes.  They fuck you over.  I'm kinda getting really anxious and I need people to stop.

I love these, it's really bad HA

1. Do you sleep in your bra?
sometimes

4. Do you enjoy drama?
depends

5. Are you a girly girl?
lol no

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
my mom

7. Small or large purses?
medium

8. Are you short?
not really

9. Do you like somebody?
yea, i think

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
yes

12. Do you think you’re conceited?
sometimes


13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
yessaaaaaaaah


14. Are you double jointed?
in my left hand

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
Blah idk

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
nope

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
yea, well there was like a few weeks ago

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
Mo san

[x]I do wear make up.
[] I have cried at a movie theater.
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I get jealous.
[sometimes idk] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[mood thing] I love to laugh.
[sometimes, mood] I like death/grind/black metal.
[certain kinds] I like rap.
[sometimes] I like techno.
[certain kinds] I like country.
[not usually, phase thing] I carry a purse.
[x] I’d be lost without my computer.
[x] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[x] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[x] I own a boy band CD.
[x] I get bored watching football.
[] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat.
[sometimes] Guys are confusing.
[] I’ve been called a bad influence.
[] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.


Come on ladies, be truthful!
1. What color is your bra that your wearing?
orange

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
  doesn't matter

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
sort of

5. Do you have a best friend?
many

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
lol

7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
yea

8. Do you like your life?
sometimes

11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
yea

12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
  hmmmm probs girls

13. How long have you had a facebook?
freshman year

14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
yea navid

15. What are your biggest fears?
i have a lot

16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
pshhhhhhhhh :'(

17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
ugh yea

18. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater?"
depends

19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
yes

20. Do you ever wish you were famous?
yea

21. Are you currently missing someone?
  yea :/

THIS GUY OR THAT GUY? PICK ONE

Cowboy or Gangster?
Cowboy, on his steel horse he rides.

Preppy or Punk/Goth?
somewhere in between plz

Face or Body?
depends on who

Sweet or Sexy?
hmmmm bothish

Armani or Abercrombie?
plz armani

Contacts or Glasses?
depends, both

DO IT, its a girl survey.

01. Eyeliner or Mascara?
both

02. Louis vuitton or dooney & bourke?
  meh neither

03. American eagle or Hollister?
AE cuter undies

04. Pumps or flats?
depends on mood

05. Skirts or pants?
depends on mood and weather

06. Socks or leggings?
depends on person, for me,  probs socks

07. Hoodies or jackets?
hoodies or really nice jackets

08. Heels or sneakers?
both

09. Straight or curly hair?
depends on who

10. Hoop or dangling earrings?
both

13. White or black?
zebra

14. Victoria’s secret or bath and body works?
victoria's secret for bras, but body works for creams and soap shits. is this even a question?

15. Smoothies or lattes
depends on mah modd yo

16. Diet or regular sodas?
diet

17. Water or daiquiris?
depends, usually water

18. Pearls or diamonds?
neither

20. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen?
probs ashley, cause she seems the most ~stable~ but i cant really tell the dif

22. iPod or cell phone?
cell phone, ipod, both plz

23. Friends or family?
both

24. Lip gloss or lip stick?
shtick

25. Manicure or pedicures?
manicure

27. Tank tops or beaters?
tank tops

28. Tiffany’s or Chanel?
chanel, idg this comparison cause tiffany's is jewlery but chanel is like...some of everything

29. love or peace?
both

30. Sunglasses or purses?
shades

IN A GUY...

Funny or Serious?
funny, knows when to be srs

Romantic or Daredevil?
romantic

Dark Eyes or Light Eyes?
light, dark, not to important

Long Hair or Short Hair?
not to long or to short

Curly Hair or Straight Hair?
curly if its short

Clean-cut or Rough?
depends

Basketball Player or Football Player?
lol groce

Smoker or Non-smoker?
non, depends on who and how much they smoke

Drunk or Sober?
sober

Druggie or Clean?
clean :<

Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car?
motorcycle >:P

Player or Loyal ?
loyal

Happy April, I need to post more.  I'm confused cause certain people are sending mixed signals.  It's raining today.  Really hard.  It's kinda nice, as long as I'm not in it.  Blah I've been so tired recently.  Mixed feelings about the end of the year and Twitter.  I'm excited cause I'm drawing more.

I went to BAGLY yesterday, I don't really know why, and I hooked up with Eli, which was weird.  A week ago my mom found a thing of cheap whisky in my drawer, and she took it, and she confronted me about it today and was like, "I want to be able to trust you and know that you won't do shit balh blah," (this was prompted by me lying about where I was last night), and it's kinda hard 'cause there's tons of shit that I can't just tell her straight up about.  I think Daniel Gippetti likes me, which is weird, too.  My computer has so many viruses, it sucks.  I can't upload anything to the internet, which is a lot more inhibiting then you'd think.  My itunes also doesn't open anymore.  I talked to Allie for the first time in forever on Friday, which was kinda whoa-ish.  It makes it so much harder.  She's changed so much, but I still really love her, I think.  It's getting really hard to deal with.  From me talking to her, it made me never wanna drink again or smoke or anything, cause I told her how I got this pipe and bong thing when I was away and she was like, "Whoa, you've changed."  I really don't think I have, but whatever.  I want her to like me a lot again, even though she's crazy.  I'm starting to really hate myself again, like I can't live with myself, when I think about I feel gross.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=to1UUaV1UzY&eurl=http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/32626421.html

this video is so awful but i am dying omg
the oscars were badass
things still suck
but idk really know how i feel anymore
i just wanna get crunk ngl

I've been sick and achy the last few weeks, so that sucks.  There's been a lump in my boob for awhile and I just got it checked out today.  She was like it's probs just a cyst but your mammogram is on monday anyway lol and I was like ...cuuuuuuute

Happy Febuary.  My birthday was a week and a half ago.  It was kinda weird, cause most of my close friends forgot completely, and all these random people remembered.  It really, really sucked.  I really can't deal with anyone.  Omg my LJ jas been sounding all emo pain latelyish, so sorry, I guess. This year is gonna suck so much, cause the trend from the last three months isn't slowing down.

This past month and a little bit, I guess around Thanksgiving, mehbeh a little after, has sucked harder then I thought possible.  I want to go back so badly. Like I'm dying, ugh.  Happy New Year, anyway

[ ] stayed single
[x] got kissed
[x] kissed someone new
[ ] kissed in the snow
[ ] kissed in the rain
[x?] had my heart broken
[ ] broke someone else's heart
[ ] had a stalker
[x] lost a friend
[x] had a good relationship with someone
[x] questioned my sexual orientation
[ ] came out of my closet
[ ] got pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[x] did something I regret
[x] lost faith in love for awhile
[ ] kissed under mistletoe
[ ] got my first job
[ ] got a promotion
[ ] got a pay raise
[ ] changed jobs
[x] lost my job
[ ] quit my job
[ ] dated a co-worker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[ ] got fired from my job
[ ] failed a class
[x] cut class
[x] skipped school
[x] did something I was proud of
[ ] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[x] painted a picture
[ ] wrote a poem
[x] ran a mile
[x] listened to music I couldn't stand
[x] double dipped
[ ] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover
[x] went to camp
[ ] threw a surprise party
[ ] laughed till I cried
[x] flirted shamelessly
[x] visited a foreign country
[x] visited a foreign state
[ ] cooked a disastrous meal
[x] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[x] realized something new about myself
[ ] tried to gain weight
[x] dyed my hair
[ ] came close to losing my life
[x] someone close to me died
[ ] went to a wild party
[ ] got arrested
[x] read a great book
[x] saw a great movie
[ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[ ] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell someone but cant
[x] experienced something new
[x] made new friends
[ ] found out who your real friends are
[x] lied to your parents
[x] snuck out
[x] got in trouble with police
[ ] kissed in a pool
[ ] kissed under the stars
[x] did an illegal drug
[x-sort of] went to a party
[x-probably] had the time of your life
[x] danced
[ ] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone
[x] changed your sexual preference
[x] swam in a pool
[ ] made a snowman
[ ] went snowboarding
[x] went sledding
[ ] slept in past 2pm
[x] held someones hand
[x] held someones hand that you care about
[x] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[x] gone on vacation
[x] gone on vacation with a friend
[ ] driven a car
[ ] danced in the rain
[ ] seen someone get in a car accident
[ ] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe
[meh] had an amazing year
[x] missed someone
[ ] got hit by car
[ ] sent someone to the hospital
[ ] got sent to the hospital
[x] got a new pet
[meh, up and down] enjoyed this year

i've been feeling so shitty it's unbelieveable for tons of different reasons.  i kind of just wanna leave.


SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own facebook account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

(X) Rocky Horror Picture Show
() Grease
(X) Pirates of the Caribbean
(X) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
() Boondock Saints
(X) Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
(X) Neverending Story
() Blazing Saddles
(X) Airplane

Total: 6

(X) The Princess Bride
() AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(X) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
() White Noise
() White Oleander
() Anger Management
(X) 50 First Dates
(X) The Princess Diaries
(X) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total so far: 14

() Scream
() Scream 2
() Scream 3
() Scary Movie
() Scary Movie 2
() Scary Movie 3
() Scary Movie 4
() American Pie
() American Pie 2
() American Wedding
() American Pie Band Camp

Total so far:14

(X) Harry Potter 1
(X) Harry Potter 2
(X) Harry Potter 3
(X) Harry Potter 4
()Resident Evil 1
()Resident Evil 2
(X) The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
()The Village
(X) Lilo & Stitch

Total so far: 20

(X) Finding Nemo
(x)Finding Neverland
() Signs
(X) The Grinch
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(X) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
() White Chicks
() Butterfly Effect
() 13 Going on 30
() I, Robot
(X) Robots

Total so far: 25

(X) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
() Universal Soldier
(X) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
() Deep Impact
()KingPin
(X) Never Been Kissed
(X) Meet The Parents
(X) Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
() Joe Dirt
() KING KONG - only the original

Total so far: 30

() A Cinderella Story
() The Terminal
() The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(X) Dumb & Dumber
()Dumber & Dumberer
(x)Final Destination
()Final Destination 2
(X) Final Destination 3
() Halloween
()The Ring
() The Ring 2
() Surviving X-MAS
(X) Flubber

Total so far: 35

() Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
() Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
() Ghost Ship
()From Hell
() Hellboy
()Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
() The Whole Nine Yards
() The Whole Ten Yards

Total so far: 37

() The Day After Tomorrow
()Child's Play
() Seed of Chucky
() Bride of Chucky
(X) Ten Things I Hate About You
() Just Married
() Gothika
() Nightmare on Elm Street
() Sixteen Candles
(x)Remember the Titans
()Coach Carter
(X) The Grudge
(x)The Grudge 2
(X) The Mask
() Son Of The Mask

Total so far: 42

() Bad Boys
() Bad Boys 2
() Joy Ride
() Lucky Number Slevin
(X) Ocean's Eleven
()Ocean's Twelve
()Bourne Identity
()Bourne Supremecy
() Lone Star
() Bedazzled
() Predator I
() Predator II
(x)The Fog
(X) Ice Age
() Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
() Curious George

Total so far: 45

() Independence Day
(x) Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
() My Bosses Daughter
() Maid in Manhattan
() War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x)Rush Hour 2

Total so far: 50

() Best Bet
(X) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
()She's All That
() Calendar Girls
() Sideways
() Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
()Ever After
(X) Wizard of Oz
() Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble in Little China
() The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
() The Terminator 3

Total so far: 53

() X-Men
() X-2
(X) X-3
(X) Spider-Man
(X) Spider-Man 2
() Sky High
()Jeepers Creepers
() Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(X) The Little Mermaid
(X) Freaky Friday
() Reign of Fire
() The Skulls
() Cruel Intentions
() Cruel Intentions 2
() The Hot Chick
(X) Shrek
(X) Shrek 2

Total so far: 61

() Swimfan
() Miracle on 34th street - only the original
() Old School
(x)The Notebook
() K-Pax
() Krippendorf's Tribe
() A Walk to Remember
() Ice Castles
(x)Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old Virgin

Total so far: 63

() Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
() Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
() Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
() Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
() Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
() Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade

Total so far: 63

() Baseketball
(x)Hostel
() Waiting for Guffman
(x) House of 1000 Corpses
(x) Devils Rejects (so good omg)
(x) Elf
() Highlander
() Mothman Prophecies
() American History X
() Three

Total so Far: 67

() The Jacket
() Kung Fu Hustle
() Shaolin Soccer
() Night Watch
(X) Monsters Inc.
(X) Titanic
() Monty Python and the Holy Grail
() Shaun Of the Dead
()Willard

Total so far: 69

(x) High Tension
() Club Dread
() Hulk
() Dawn Of the Dead
() Hook
(X) Chronicles Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
() Orgazmo
() Phantasm
() Waterworld

Total so far: 71

() Kill Bill vol 1
() Kill Bill vol 2
() Mortal Kombat
() Wolf Creek
()Kingdom of Heaven
(x)the Hills Have Eyes
() I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
() The Last House on the Left
() Re-Animator
() Army of Darkness

Total so far: 72

(X) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(X) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
(x ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor

Total so far: 79

() The Matrix
() The Matrix Reloaded
() The Matrix Revolutions
()Animatrix
() Evil Dead
() Evil Dead 2
() Team America: World Police
()Red Dragon
() Silence of the Lambs
() Hannibal

Total: 79

I really wish it was possible to like, take a break from school.  It's getting kind of tough for me right now, ya know?  I feel like I fucked tons of shit up.

Allie i really miss you. when my sister comes back next week im gonna make her go out with me to visit you. :(

omg i had a  fun nightsies yesterday and now i feel very good. >:3

63 Annoying Questions

1. Song that always makes you sad?  Lover, You Should've Come Over - Jeff Buckley
2. Last thing you bought? lulz and evangelion model kit
3. Last person you argued with? mumsies
4. Do you put Butter before putting the jelly on? um yea
5. One of your stuffed animals.  my lobster named neil from allie
6. Did you ever own at one time a Nysnc Cd? no strings attached holla
7. Favorite day of the week? friday
8. Favorite Sundae topping? fudgums
9. Did you take Piano lessons? like 2
10. Most frequent song played? omg idk my computers have been changing so much its changed a lot
11. T.V. show you secretly enjoy?  im ~proud~ of all mah shows
12. Would you rather play basketball or hockey? bball
13. Date someone older or younger? older
14. One place you could travel right now? anywhere by bus or train
15. Do you use umbrellas? sometimes
16. Do you know all the words to the Canadian national anthem? lulz no
17. Favorite Cheese? smoked gouda or classic cheddar, or mozzerella
18. Disturbed or My Chemical Romance? MCR
19. Do you prefer Blondes or Brunettes? brunettes holla at mah girls
20. Best job you ever had? dog walker yeeesssssssssssssah
21. did you go to your high school prom? I was invited last year but i didn't go :(
22. perfect time to wake up? 10 to 11
23. perfect time to go to bed? 11-1
24. do you use your queen right away in chess? um that's stupid no
25. Ever been in a car accident? sort of
26. closer to mom or dad...or neither? close in very different ways
27. what age is this exciting life over for you? omg idk
28. what decade during the 20th century would you have chosen to be a teenager? 70s or 80s or 90s
29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned? my gold break dancing shoes or my black cowboy boots
30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were in high school? i mean yea, im in high school, so all of them?
31. Were you in track and field? thought about it a lot
32. Were you ever in a school talent show? in plays and stuff, does that count?
33. Have you ever written in a library book? lol yes
34. Allergic to? too much
35. Favorite fruit? right now, watermelon
36. Have you watched sex and the city? i mean i've seen it, i don't really watch it though
37. Baseball hat or toque? what's a toque?
38. Do you shampoo first in the shower or soap? shampoo
39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste? wet plz
40. Pen or pencil? mood
41. Have you ever gambled at a casino? nope
42. Have you thrown up on a plane? nope
43. Have you thrown up in a car? nope
44. Have you thrown up at work? nope
45. Do you scream on roller coasters? fuck no
46. Who was your first prom date? :(
47. Who was your first roommate? puppums
48. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time? champagne
49. What was your first job? student teacher
50. What was your first car? lulz
51. When did you go to your first funeral? when i was in 6th grade, to my paternal grand dad
52. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown? still here, baby
53. Who was your first grade teacher? ms. white
54. Where did you go on your first airplane ride? i think florida? i really couldn't tell you
55. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? myself
56. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them? maia :3
57. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parent house? still here
58. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? hanna, i think. maybe andrew
59. Who? me
60. What is the first thing you do in the morning? make myself smell good.
61. What was the first concert you attended? never been, actually. plenty of jazz clubs though.
62. First tattoo or piercing? right helix
63. First celebrity crush? omg idk

 

I WANT TO UPLOAD MY ARTS BUT I CANNOT BECAUSE I MAI SCANNER HAS NO WORKING >:O

Oh my God, I suck you guys. Happy August!!! better late then never, i figure.

So basically, it feels like so much has happened this summer, when in reality, it hasn't. I think it feels that way cause really, not much has going on, so when something does happen, it's magnified. Basically, in normal life, there are so many things going on that you cant focus on all of them, so you choose one main event to write about, and try to briefly summarize everything else, even if it means going back and editing again and again because you realize you forgot to include some stuff. Because I havn"t done much this summer, I remember specifically everything I have done, and that makes it seem like so much has more happened. So normally, things are constantly changing, so things are forgotten, and only the bigger picture can be seen. But right now, I haven't done enough to forget those minor details, so to write about everything I've done seems like some vast task that would take a very long time to complete, just because of those details. So summary, basically, art classes, some family trauma, aaaaaaaaaaaaand now I'm in St. Michaels (middle of nowhere), Maryland, for a week, half on a sailboat. All for my father's 60th birthday. I'm lonely and wanna go home. Lol all i wanted to do this summer was stay at home with my friends.

I really have to just start getting used to how i look. once i accept my own reflection, then i can start actually forgiving it, and not hating it anymore. I don't know, I sit with my friends in front of a computer, looking at facebook. "Oh my God, she's so gorgeous, blah blah blah." So I wish it was me, really badly. It's weird though, because I think I'm extremely weird looking, but at the same time, I really cannot accept that I am not the most attractive person ever. "If I had lighting, and make up people too, I'd be at least as good looking as them." That's what I say. But I honestly think that my face is bizzare looking, and I want to be one of those people whose friends and piers oggle for their "beauty."

I'm so insecure, and it feels like everything good is dying because of it :(

Holy shit, July already. The first 3 weeks of summer haven't even felt like it. Mostly because I've been at home on account of my wisdom teeth being pulled. So pretty much the only person I've seen is Allie. And Andrew and Hanna a little bit. I can't wait until Gaby, Alice, and Maia get back from their respective activities. I'm missing everybody pretty badly. Oh well. Hanna's at summer school, which is at Runkle, so she came to say hey the first day, but I wanna see her some more. I really miss everyone, I'll call people soon, over the next few days and stuff, probably. I don't know, nothing new. HAPPY JULY EVERYONE!

I'm going out to Chinatown today to get dumplings with Andrew and Mo. I'm really excited. Ducky woke me up at seven today. AGH. I met Allie's grandma yesterday. I liked her because she said I had a beautiful face. We were talking about because she didn't like my hair. That's fine though. She pretty much said what my grandma did. My bodies been really weird recently and I don't like it. Oh well.